Airplanes

Remember when I told you about one thing that I know will happen again soon? I think it just happened again. Well, I know and I feel that there really is something wrong but none of us would like to admit it. We talk like we're happy about what we're talking about. We act like we're enjoying what we're doing. We say those three words just to hide what's bothering us. I don't want this blog to just talk about him and us and our stupid little fights cause I want this to be really really fun. But I can't help it. Since I cannot tell him that I'm feeling kind of frustrated and sad about what's happening, I would love to express it somewhere hoping that it would help to ease this nagging feeling.

So, we're gonna talk tonight on the phone and we're going to meet each other tomorrow. I hope everything's fine and back to normal by then. I just hope we're okay. 11.11, please come faster. I could really use a wish right now. :\

Batugan Mode: ON

Boredom days are not yet over. But they are soon to end. I think I only have two weeks of sem break left and I honestly still don't want to go back to school. Believe it or not, I'm enjoying my 'batugan' (lazy) days also known as sem break. There's really nothing to do except watch TV, sit in front of the computer the whole day, sleep, eat and babysit my baby brothers. Sounds like heaven, right? Well, actually no. It's boring, deathly boring to be exact, but I admit I love being a bore here in our house more than going to my classes and be bored with my college professors. I hate sitting in class for hours then walking to the next oh-so-far away building of my next class. Why is UP so big anyway? And why are the jeepneys' routes like that? They are circling the whole campus without going near the actual buildings (e.g. Math and NIP). It's better to walk (and sometimes to run which I luckily haven't experienced just yet) than to ride an Ikot or a Toki. Anyway..

Poor me, I have nothing better to do with these precious days. But I am enjoying with Tumblr and Picnik and Backyard Monsters just a click away. I know what you're thinking right now. You're thinking that this is such a lame way to enjoy when I should be going out and hanging with my friends. A grounded-slash-home-imprisoned girl cannot obviously do that. And I don't have funds (savings = 0) to carry me outside our house except for a few meters away. I repeat, poor me. Poor in many ways including the literal meaning of poor.

So what really are these three things that makes sem break somewhat special? (awww..NOT! Haha.) First is tumblr and I know that everybody knows what tumblr is. I've been editing pictures too using Picnik so I can upload them to tumblr. My photos suck so I'm really sorry about that. Please do check my tumblr page too.. http://iheartpljsh.tumblr.com/ Yey! Reality is better than dreams. True, right? For me it is. Just like what Tom's friend in 500 days of summer when he talks about his girlfriend, "She's better than the girl of my dreams, she's real." See? Reality (is indeed) > Dreams. ♥

Like what I said, I've been editing pictures I took myself and pictures I just got from Google (haha) using Picnik. What in the world is picnik? Well, it's a site where anyone who suck in real photoshops can edit their pictures and put effects and texts on them. Now you have an idea on my photoshop-ing abilities. I suck at it! http://www.picnik.com is the site and I'd like to share it with you! So if you suck like me, you better start using this. And, yea, you're welcome. :)

The last one is not a website unlike the two others mentioned above. It's an application in facebook (I'm not giving you a link of Facebook cause even toddlers and infants and babies and pets know what the hell Facebook is) and it's really awesome! Awesome, did I just say that? It looks awesome if you have nothing, and by this I mean nothing, to do. You create your own Town Hall and Twig Snappers and many other buildings and you create your own monsters and fight with other people who use Backyard Monsters. Awesome, right? I don't really think so. I'm just completely bored. To death.

And did I already mention that our cable is really crappy because they removerd ETC and Jack from our channels? We already called and they said they will check on it but up until now they're acting kinda lazy (like me) and they still haven't. I think they're also having their 'batugan' mode on and enjoying their own sem break. Shitty cable. No more Glee, The Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girl for me. ETC is my only source for these and they removed it. Croowell. Think I'll just download them.

That's all for now folks. See you next post! :)

Confessions of a (Insert Adjective Here) Girlfriend

I never saw myself as the everything's-alright-type of girl. I never accepted anything just the way it is even when dealing with my parents and my friends. I always look for ways to say that I am right and I still believe that I am right even when proven wrong. Yea, kind of tough (I think) and hard-headed.

But everything changed because of this man I know. A freshman in college just like me. Average height (but he looks kinda tall when standing beside me, I'm not really short, I just don't know his actual height, haha). Average intelligence (well, compared to other UP students. Of course, he's smarter than the vast majority not studying in UP. Haha. All Maroons are.) Average weight (this is some kind of a lie because he's a little over the underweight line.) Has lots of sense of humor ( he'll make you laugh in a jiffy if you're close to him, he's a little shy with strangers). And so on.. I can continue on and on in describing this guy so I better end there. Looks like he's just an ordinary man, right? Well, for you he may be like that. But for me, he's really special. And he happens to be my (would you call it) boy.. Okay, can't say the word. Weird me, I know. He's my boyfriend.

I don't know why I'm saying this now especially when we're in good terms again. Yea, we just had a fight and we were close to that breaking point. It always happens when we are fighting and I know that in the near future this scenario will be happening again. Besides, two people in love with each other will never know what they can do together if they don't know how to test their relationship. Am I making sense? Haha. I mean, fights like this would make our relationship stronger. A person would not know the true meaning of happiness if he/she does not know how to be sad, right? Same goes with any other emotions which are binary oppositions of each other (you'll never appreciate being rich if you never experienced being poor. Haha.)

So like what I'm saying, I never saw myself as accepting as this. Well, he's the type that says sorry a lot of times even if he did nothing wrong. Kind of passive. I'll bet that if you're the girl, you'll say..'Aw! He's so sweet, he knows how to say sorry.' Well, if this happens over and over again and all you hear is 'sorry' and 'sorry' and 'sorry' plus a lot of different excuses, there would come a time that it would be tiring to hear these sorry's and excuses. And before our one big fight (Go Ateneo! Lol.), my ears are getting irritated of these endless apologies and reasoning. Sometimes, I blame myself for feeling like this. But what can I do? Everything has its own saturation point.

There are times when I feel like I'm the only one doing something to make this work. I call a lot of times just to hear his voice and to know if he's alright. If I were him I won't answer the calls anymore because it wastes my cellphone's battery and besides, the connection is pretty lame. Long-distance relationship is really hard. We don't get to see each other every time and it sucks when the time when we last saw each other gets long. Now, I'm freakin grounded and I can't go out and I don't have money and he doesn't want to go here and I don't know what else I can do.

I think I'm not making sense anymore. Well, love is also like that, isn't it? Love is being stupid together (quoted from Elder Futhark. haha.) So, I'm being stupid and I think he is too and yea, love. Haha. I just want to share something about what I'm feeling now after 27 months. I know that our relationship is not yet that long. But I know that we still have years and years of future together ahead of us and this shitty problems will be gone soon. And if you believe in fairies, I (we) believe that forever is real. Uyeah!

Nonsense blabber. Haha. Tenkshuu~

A first for everything.

So, here's my first post here. Well, I made this late in the evening and my brain's already asleep at this time so I'm really sorry for the crappy background and the shitty layout. Not a pro. Haha. I have so many friends blogging here already and my best friend is kind of persuading me to make one too. So, here it is! I really have nothing important to share now because I'm already sleepy and yea, I know I'm just talking nonsense. So just to 'baptize' my new blogging site/account/page/whatever, I'm writing this now. And for your sake, whoever you are reading this now, I'm ending this shit. Goodnight! (Well, it is night now while I'm writing this.) And thank you so much for wasting your time. Ciao! :)